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March 31st, 2008 at 9:12 pm
This is strange... [
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[ mood | sentimental ]

Wow. Hello. I haven't been here in a really long time. I'm not back, per se. I don't think I'll ever be back. But I needed to make this post. For those of you who don't recognize me or remember me...well, it has been ages since I last wrote anything on here. In any case, if you don't, this is Chelsea. Haha.

Anyway, there are a couple of specific reasons for my posting randomly tonight, after months of not being here. I've been missing all of this LJ stuff lately - mostly I've been missing all of you guys. And I was thinking about Ana and our church (which I'm sure you don't remember me talking about, but still) and I decided to look it up on Google again. I never find any pictures or anything. But I got this weird feeling right before I typed it in to do the search, and I thought to myself, if I find anything, I'll make a post on LJ. And would you believe it?

Let's see if I still remember how to do these things... Maybe LJ cuts are like riding a bike - something you never forget how to do?Collapse )

I hope that you all remember me and everything. But even if you don't, which I totally understand, know that I miss you all, and still think about you.

And if you still care, even just a little bit, I might have some things to say to you...Collapse )

Anyway, now that I've gotten all mushy on you... I just really wanted you all to know that you've had an impact on my life, and even though I'm not around anymore and maybe you've all forgotten me, I haven't forgotten you. ♥♥

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October 13th, 2007 at 1:18 pm
Back? [
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[ mood | hopefully better ]

Aaahh, I dropped off the face of the earth. D:

I missed you all so much! God, you have no idea. I'm going to try to be back now though. Tell me how you've been? What's been going on?

I love you all. I missed you so much. Crazy.

♥♥

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September 11th, 2007 at 7:40 pm
:( [
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I feel so disconnected. I hate that. If you know me, please talk to me so I feel like I have a life and not just a random existence. Please?
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September 8th, 2007 at 10:43 am
To be honest [
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[ mood | ecstatic ]

I don't even really have words.

http://www.wcyy.com/

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September 5th, 2007 at 5:43 am
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[ mood | tired ]

Happy Birthday, Ana!

Here's your present...Collapse )

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August 31st, 2007 at 11:16 am
I think I should move to Argentina. [
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I hate being underage. It's...fuck it, it's no fun. How are other people supposed to know what's best for me? They have no idea. Haha. And my parents. At least their intentions are good. I suppose.

Ana, you are a habit-forming little devil. :P

But yes, the moral of the story is that being a minor fucking sucks. The end.

EDIT: Oh, for Christ's sake. I have no will power. Ana, I think I want it.
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August 24th, 2007 at 10:14 am
It's just a thunderstorm, baby there's nothing you should fear. The sky's broken. [
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[ mood | content ]

I had a dream about Frank and Gerard's little onstage fight thing last night. It was really weird. I have no idea why I had it, to be honest, after all that worrying I did a couple months ago and I barely dreamt about any of it then.

Anyway, I've already been to the doctor's once today, but I have to go again this afternoon. I got a shot earlier, and I'll have to have my blood drawn later. I just hate doctors, and the fact that I have to spend so much of time to go and see them when all they do is prick me with a needle. Fuck that.

My mom said she'll either buy me a CD or a book because I cleaned my room. I don't know what I want yet.

Rock and sunlight are good for the soul.

I wrote a two page prologue to my new (original) story yesterday.

As you can see, my mind is all over the place, so I'm just gonna go now...

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August 22nd, 2007 at 9:04 pm
:D ... :/ ... :( ... D: ... :'| [
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[ mood | sad ]

Jenni came over yesterday to help me clean my room. We did more than clean. We purged. It's totally sterile. I can see floor. Hell, the floor is fucking vaccuumed. My DVDs and books are organized, my clothes are washed and off the floor, I'm not choking on cat hair, I can see everything, my trash is thrown away. It's horrible. It doesn't even feel like my room. It's not closed in anymore, nothing is around me. It's not cozy and safe, it's all open and organized and clean and so...not like me. It's uncomfortable and scary and I don't like it.

And I have a headache. And a fucking sunburn. I fucking hate the stupid fucking sun. I managed to avoid it all day and now since I don't have the ability to say no to people, I have a fucking sunburn. And my neck hurts. And I had to walk and walk (in the sun) and so now my feet hurt, too. And for what? An ice cream cone that I got to eat while I could think of nothing else but stupid fucking Matt. And that's only because school's coming up and I'm going to have to get used to having classes with him again. Classes at all, really. I don't want to go back to school. The only good thing about being back will be seeing Mr. J for English again. The rest of it can go to hell.

I've felt like writing a lot this week. Problem is I haven't had any time for it. Need I explain how annoying that is? No, I didn't think so.

And I still have homework to do. All of it, in fact. Now, I'm not complaining about how I've got very little time to do it, because that was intentional. I'm complaining that I've got it at all. It's just fucking ridiculous that we get homework at all, ever over the summer -- it's supposed to be our two months off. I don't care how little time the homework will seem to take if you spread it out over the whole two months. We shouldn't have any ever. End of story. When are these people going to realize that I'm right?

And on top of all this stupid crap, I get to go to two different doctors this week -- one for shots, and one for drawing blood. Did you know that they can legally send blood in the mail? If they can do that, they could just send me the shots to do myself. And hell, give me a fucking bucket, and I can prick myself in the arm. Why waste my time with stupid doctors and their idiotic, egotistical nurses? Fuck that shit.


And Katie left this morning.

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August 18th, 2007 at 9:33 pm
Haven't had a real update in a while. [
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[ mood | happy ]

I have a baby (hahaha, baby... ;P) in my room tonight. Her name's Abby, and she's the cutest little fourteen month redhead. She's asleep for the night. She must be really tired, too, because I'm watching Alexander and typing this about two feet away from her head...

I've watched this movie so many times. So many times. Particularly the director's cut, since I've had it longer, but I got the original, the first one to come out, the other night. Alexander is my current obsession, you see. I've loved the movie since I first saw it around Christmas (thanks to Ana), but I'm currently very obsessed. It's a very fun obsession, though, and educational. On top of that, it seems to be helping me to regain some morals, which is very welcome. Plus it includes Jared Leto, and that'll help make anything fun.

We brought Abby to pick blueberries at my aunt and uncle's house. My mom made a pie, and soon I will have some. Yum. ^_^



PS: Ana, I'm really, really sorry for just disappearing like that. After I left, my computer restarted itself, and now AIM won't let me sign back on. Normally, I'd press the stand-by button and wait for everything to sort itself out, but I'm going to bed in a few minutes anyway. So I'm really sorry and good luck with your homework. I love you.

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August 15th, 2007 at 10:01 pm
Home. [
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Hi. Missed you guys.

Kathryn, whenever you're struck by the random urge to be around, I'll be wanting to talk to you.
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August 8th, 2007 at 6:51 am
I'm cutting it pretty close here. [
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I'm leaving in a little over an hour to go to Nova Scotia for a week. I'll miss you guys; love you!

Kathryn, if you get back from your mysterious disappearance while I'm gone, leave me a message somewhere, okay?

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July 26th, 2007 at 8:43 pm
Lalala. :) [
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So, I've been doing what I said I'd do. I'm reading Harry Potter, now that I've replaced my copies of books one and two. I just finished Prisoner of Azkaban a few minutes ago. Tomorrow I'll start Goblet of Fire. I'll probably finish it Saturday. I'm fairly positive tomorrow's Friday...

With my constant reading, I haven't been tempted to come online much -- only at night to catch up on things and whatnot. And talk to my friends, of course. But this had made me notice, Kathryn, you seem to have dropped off the face of the earth? If you're around, say something so I don't think you've died or something equally unpleasant.

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July 23rd, 2007 at 10:07 pm
Hmm. [
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I'm on a major HP kick now. I want to read all seven books again, one right after the other. I'm gonna do it, too. Focus all my time on it until it's done. I won't stop for anything but rest. I am determined. I would have started today, but I don't have the first four books anymore, thanks to that fucking storm in April. I got the third and fourth one at the library today, which doesn't sound bad, but it really upsets me. I want my books back -- my books, the ones I grew up with. Anyway, I think I'm over-tired, because the internet is upsetting me and I'm annoyed that no one's around for me to talk to about the book. I'll have to buy the first two tomorrow afternoon and then I can start reading. For now, I think I should sleep before I have some sort of...mental breakdown or something.

Sorry. I just felt like rambling about the inner goings-on of my brain. Oh, and Em, thanks for that picture.

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July 22nd, 2007 at 6:47 pm
Phew, done! [
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I haven't been online since Friday morning, so I'm going to catch up on my friends page now. I won't say anything about the book, but I'm finished, and it took me 24 1/2 hours to read. Just felt like sharing, haha.

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July 19th, 2007 at 10:42 am
All I can think about is Harry Potter. [
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[ mood | excited ]

I don't mind though. It's fun. I haven't been all HP-obsessed for a while so it's kind of a nice change. I'm so excited for tomorrow. I know the book doesn't technically come out until Saturday, but Nonesuch Books (a small, local bookstore) is having a midnight release party tomorrow night, so I can get my book at midnight. And before that, there's going to be this thing downtown called Muggle Fest. It's this whole big thing, twelve bucks a ticket, and it's sold out. It's in this warehouse-type place, I guess, and there's a train that they're calling the Hogwarts Express and everything. A bunch of businesses from downtown are going to have little shops inside set up to be like Diagon Alley. There will be a place to make wands, somewhere to buy robes, a candy shop, and a local bar is going to be the Leaky Cauldron. All the money from the tickets goes to a charity, I think. The whole thing is pretty rad. I'm psyched about it. If you want to check it out, the list of shops that'll be included is here. I think the whole thing is really cool. Even if it's lame, it'll be fun.

How many of you are planning on hiatusing this weekend to read? I probably will, unless I get really tired at night and stop reading early. I most likely won't be around at all on Saturday though, and maybe not on Sunday either. I know Sarah just said basically the same thing, and I'm pretty sure Ana's not planning on being around much. Anyone else taking time off to read?

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July 15th, 2007 at 8:47 pm
Haven't posted in a while. [
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[ mood | sick ]

Ugh, I'm sick. I'm almost never sick. I'm not puking or anything, but my brain, as I've said many times in the past couple days, kind of feels like it's roller skating around my skull. I feel woozy - quite. It's unpleasant. And the last time I checked, my temperature was 102.4. Currently, my head hurts and I'm most uncomfortable. Ugh. Also, being sick is making me very tired. Walking takes up all my energy, even if it's just to the bathroom and back to the couch or whatever. I've been coughing a lot - the kind where every time you take a breath, you feel the need to couch again, but when you do it's very unsatsifying, so you just cough and cough until your whole body aches. Unpleasant.

Anyway, I hope everyone's doing well - enjoying life and whatnot. I'm glad to see Helen back. And I know I'll probably forget it on Wednesday, so in case I do, happy birthday, Sarah!

Oh, and my neck is kind of sore. That's annoying.

My love to all of you.♥

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July 3rd, 2007 at 10:45 am
Blah blah. [
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[ mood | must stop watching Buffy ]

Me + Buffy = getting absolutely nowhere. See? I already forgot what I was going to say... Something about my friends page being like a ghost town take over by industry, but...that's obviously gone, so whatever.

I just figured I haven't updated for a while so I might as well. I should be writing though. That was the plan, but no...the idea of writing has gone out the window, unfortunately. This show is a habit. I stayed in bed until nine this morning because I stayed up late watching it. Two nights in a row, actually.

Anyway, tomorrow's the fourth of July and I'm going to my Aunt's. I'll bring one CD, one that I don't know any of the lyrics to, and my notebook. I'll try to write all day, but I doubt it's very likely. But I'll try.

I miss you guys. Where the hell'd everybody go?

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June 28th, 2007 at 6:42 am
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I'm sorry I left last night, Ana. I shouldn't have, and it's no excuse, but I just couldn't make myself hang around. I was...more or less a wreck. I'm really sorry. ♥

In other news...well, there is no other news.

To make this some kind of legit, um...on the cruise we got towell animals every night. We got a penguin, a bunny, an anteater, a monkey, an elephant, and a puppy. They were amazing.

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June 27th, 2007 at 11:33 am
I'm so nervous. :/ [
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I just posted the first chapter to my new fic. God, it's been ages since I've posted anything, and while I'm excited, I'm also nervous as hell. I'm so worried that no one will like it. I feel utterly ridiculous. It's awful that I'd even care half as much as I do.

Also, it annoys me that I went ahead and posted it, because I said I wouldn't until I had the fifth chapter back from my beta. She said she'd have it to me this morning, but I know she's busy, so I just posted it... Ugh. On the one hand, I'm annoyed with myself, on the other, I know I just wanted to put it off as much as I wanted to get on with it.

Anyway, I'll shut up now, I promise.

I hope you're all doing well. And I hope Helen's computer gets fixed soon -- I miss seeing her posts. :(
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June 24th, 2007 at 12:08 pm
All right, well, I'm home. [
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[ mood | glad to be home ]

I missed everyone so damn much. You have no idea. And of course, now I can't sign into AIM for some reason. Oh, nevermind, it's working now. Anyway, I'll make a post about my trip later. I just wanted to say that I'm back, in case anyone cares. I haven't talked to Ana or Kathryn for what feels like forever, so if you're around, talk to me!

I love you all, and I'm so glad to be home. ♥

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